闲/忙

习惯了忙碌，总喜欢让生活充满着大大小小的事物，才叫充实。。
习惯了忙碌，总觉得让自己为某些事物烦着，才仿佛有了人生目标。。。
习惯了忙碌，总是要让自己肩负着些重任，才找到自己的价值。。。
习惯了忙碌， 对期待已久的空闲，反而觉得怪怪的。。。

闲了，生活空洞了，目标没了，价值被贬了。。。
慢慢颓废，废人一个。。。
闲了，脑袋空了，胡思乱想了，沉淀多时的事物浮现了。。。
慢慢烦恼，烦人一个。。。

选择了忙碌，倒不如说是选择了逃避。。。
选择了忙碌，就可以把许多不想处理的问题抛在一旁。。。
选择了忙碌，就可以把许多不想面对的失落暂时忘了。。。
选择了忙碌，就可以把许多不堪回首的痛楚麻痹了。。。
选择了忙碌，就可以把填也填不满的空洞表面的遮盖着。。。
选择了忙碌，就有了一个万能的借口，可以逃避一切。。。

要搞清楚，
要面对的，迟早要面对；
多么不想理的，还是要理；
没有根治的，就消不了痛；
不打开盖的洞，永远无法被填满。。。

要搞清楚，
忙碌或许能让生命充实，
却不能成为真正的人生目标，
也不能给予人生价值，
只是一种假象。。。

别在逃避了！！！

i believe i can fly

i can fly!!!!
FLY....

FLY!!!!!


FLY!!!!
FLY!!!!!

FLY!!!!!!

no.... i cannot fly...

Once had admire those players so so so much,
once had hoped to fly and dunk like they do,
well, the reality is, no matter how hard i try, i can never play like they do

sometimes life is just cruel, as it allows you to have as many dreams as you want, but as life goes on, you found that you have to give some up one by one...
you can't blame anyone for that....
some had never work for their dreams,
some had not work hard enough,
some had worked hard enough but just do not have the luck,
that's just life...

it is always important to be aware of your own position in the reality,
we should appreciate those dreams still remained achievable, instead of mourning for dreams which are lost...

it is time to realise of my position and priorities,
it is time to appreciate of what i had and hold it strongly, not letting it to slip away again
well, i believe i always can fly!!!!!!

the ugly truth

loved the way you had been so naive, open up yourself without any disguise, had the intelligence of being complicated , but had chosen to be naive, had chosen to see the world from its pretty site with a simple mind, but still had realised how much evils are hidden on the other site ... having guidance in whatever you think and do, holding on to it strongly and bravely... a beautiful heart standing among the ugly truths, wisdom that distinct you from the fools...
recently, have found that you are not as blank as a white paper... well, no 1 is... Stories hidden behind are revealed 1 by 1... anticipated and scared...it is driving me crazy... cannot wait to know the real you...

stucked...

stucked... after so long, even haven't enter the first step...no progression at all...
have no idea about what to do next,
have no idea about what should be done,
have no idea about what is really the situation,
have no experience of such thing,
have time of about half a year left,
really too short to make things happen...
if you know what am i talking about,
please consult me, or give me a hint,
a CLEARER 1!!!
I really need a guidance

叁

好像鱼骨卡在喉咙的中央，好像有颗大的石头，好像原子弹要爆炸，我要疯了；再烂再讨厌的人都遇过，骗我背叛我的人也遇过，都不曾如此困扰着我；饶恕真是要用一生去学习，但问题是不曾得罪我的，要我如何饶恕？虽是公认的惹人厌，但真的不曾得罪我，不曾对不起我; 既是如此，又为何困扰我那么久？真的，我活了这么久，第一次也是唯一一次那么小气，对一个人如此厌倦，久久无法饶恕，竟然还拉低自己的人格出言毁谤。。。是我小气？这是我的捆绑，但何时才能解脱，怎样才能解脱？

大家羽毛都长齐了，会飞了。。。不再懵懵懂懂了，有主见了，我那一套明显行不通了，不需要我扶着了，或许是我需要你们吧。。。短短一段时间，大家都学了不少东西，成长了不少。。。我还在原地踏步？是开倒车吧。。。真可惜自己一直不愿放开胸怀，没跟你们一起体验这一切？现在开始还来得及吧。。。希望大家都还存着那份情怀，那种热情。。。我也要跟上你们叻。。。

对太会说话的人，要爱或恨？总是觉得自己被他们骗了，当他们把你捧上天，发现只是却奉承；当他表示有多欣赏你时，其实是要让你有多欣赏他们；当你越来越欣赏他们表现出来的好，却忽略了他们隐藏了多少的坏；当他们用无限的热诚燃烧了你，却发现热诚的其实只有傻傻的自己。。。 往往不想把话包装得太美丽，却必须学会这么做，谁叫世人都爱听好话。。。真不明白。。。做么那些傻嗨酱爱听骗话。。。真的希望，也很真的很珍惜，还有人可以让我坦荡荡的说话，不论好听或难听，只要是真心话，不用漂亮的词语，不用顾他的感受，因为他知道真心可贵。。。真的希望，也很真的很珍惜，还有人可以向我坦荡荡的说话，不论好听或难听，只要是真心话，不用漂亮的词语，不用顾我的感受，因为我知道真心可贵。。。

blesses

Happy to hear that you've finally found your right one,
such a long time never heard a news about you...
However, happy to get this wonderful news...
Sorry that once i had made you to wait for an empty promise,
once i thought i've ruined your life...
hahaha.. seems i had worried too much..
Time keeps to move on and life goes on, whether you like it or not,
so, we should always move forward, not stopping for anyone...
well, all the best to you...

本末倒置

太乱来了。。。
生活被太多东西充满，或许是好事，让生活充实，让自己学习；
但被这些乱七八糟的琐碎事充满，似乎是本末倒置。。。
其实，很多时候是身不由己。。。
在忙碌中，更该保持清醒的头脑，才不会偏离了正轨，才不会忘了轻重，才不会忽略生活中的小细节。


人言可畏，
选择不信，害怕错失良机；选择相信，害怕被玩弄；
信与不信似乎不太重要，其实重点在于自己的意愿;
信又怎样？愿意又怎样？怪自己不够智慧，不懂怎样走下一步。。。