Sunday, August 23, 2009

妈,我回来了

妈,我回来了。。。进入那道久别又熟悉的家门,感受家里的温暖是何等美妙的。那张苍老的脸,经过岁月的撒野,又被划了几道皱纹,望着我向我微笑,更加明显了。。。 我怎么现在才发觉呢?

外面的世界很大,时而喧哗精彩,让人流连忘返,时而残酷现实,让人却步想逃。还来不及与妳分享这一切,妳原本上扬的嘴角掉了下来,空气顿时沉重了起来。。。妳虽一话不说,但那飘忽的眼神似乎在狠狠的责备我,责备我变了,责备我变得心机从从,责备我变得败坏堕落,责备我变得爱慕虚荣。。。一个母亲最大的失望与难过莫过于此。。。

妈,妳要相信我!!!我并未改变,只是在外转了一圈,看的事物多了,接触的人多了,自然有了自个儿的想法。世间的险恶未能让我变得险恶,城市的虚华未能让我贪恋。。。妈,你要相信我,我还是妳那个单纯的,傻傻的孩子,以前是,现在是,未来永远都是,无论我以后功成名就,出人头地,或一败涂地,落魄潦倒,我还是我,我还是妳那个单纯的,傻傻的孩子。妳要记得,我可是你一手调教出来的,是妳告诉我,人再穷也不能穷志气,人再成功也不能忘本。。。这些话,我都还记得,永远都记得。。。

现实是残酷的,世界是弱肉强食的,所以做人是该现实些,才能得以生存。生命是无常的,短暂的,终有一天,我们都要归于尘土,世间拥有的一切都是没保障的,也是带不走的,终有一天都会化为乌有。所以,在现实地面对这个世界的同时,请保留着一份单纯给自己,也给最爱的人,否则,或许有一天,你会发现自己忙了一辈子,却什么也没有。

Monday, April 13, 2009

GAY... again...

This shit topic can be annoying, but also interesting, depending on which position are you standing on. Well, it is quite interesting and entertaining to discuss this thing from the perception of a third person, especially when it is about friends who are close to you. Anyway, it is not a good deed to stab others from the back...
Different people always have different thought towards this topic, but from what had i seen, their opinions can be classified into two extremities. The first was those totally disagree with it, and even being discriminative to it. well, i admit, seeing two guys holding hands shopping together is disgusting enough, what would be my response if they hug or kiss? vomiting? Probably... But some people disagree too much which deviates from what should really hate. Long long time ago, a woman who committed adultery can be sentenced to death, killed by stones thrown by villagers without any mercy, as they had no heart, as they are so noble and innocent, as the woman had polluted the society, brought shame to them, and a human life meant nothing compared to their bullshit nobility... You might had seen this in some classical movies, and had laugh or criticise how uncivilised or barbarian the society in those years... but somehow their mind was no other than that... surely nowadays they can't kill gays for intruding the moral... but if they can they would, i believed... the way they discriminate or set those apart, shows that their mind aren't other than those in the old times... what gives you the power to judge or even penalise others? unless you are totally innocent from the time you were born, in fact, no one can be...
Now, here comes the second type people. These people aren't gay, but they don't object homosexuality... For them, sexuality is a choice, and there is no right and wrong with it, it's people's freedom to love a man or a lady. For them, morality in sexuality is nonsense, an old fashioned thought that only old or outdated people would possess... when you mention that homosexuality is wrong, they might accuse you for abusing other's freedom. They also think that homosexuality is the nature or identity of that particular person, which should let it be the way they are... this thought is common nowadays, and it keeps invading more and more people's mind, especially youngsters, those easily influenced by those bent minds.
So, which type of thought do you have? For me, these two are just too extreme. Ya, i hate and i object homosexuality, but what i hate and object are just the homosexual behaviour, not the people who possess this kind of behaviour... a friend who had aids is still my friend, a friend who kill someone is still my friend, same goes to homosexual friends... I am not totally innocent therefore i don't have the power to judge people... Besides, Everyone deserves a chance... On the other hand, i wouldn't see homosexuality as a nature or normal behaviour. Why? because it is not!!! It was a Abnormality or mental sickness among people, which should be corrected with appropriate ways... Will you see sickness as an identity of a person? Will curing a disease vanishes a person nature? Maybe you'll say some were born with homosexuality, and that makes it the identity of the person... Well, doesn't it mean that it is wrong to cure thalasemia? An objection towars homosexuality without discrimination is the correct perception, i think. A friend always said that my thought is totally influenced by christianity. I don care wat he says... But i believed too much thought of this world is deviated, biased... And more and more people are infected... It is true that people should change their mind as time goes on to adapt themselves to the world. But, it shouldn't had deviated from the standard. sometimes, it can be helpless since it is not easy to change a person's thought. i won't take a bible to the front of a person and say "Lord says, this is wrong and....... blah blah blah......" . It will never work. If it does, i had done it long times ago... There are just too much of those i think was wrong, and i am upset with.. But what can i do as a weak and strengthless human being? or maybe my own isn't correct.... sometimes it is hard to hold on to my own standpoint too...