points to ponder

a strong man would take his strength for granted, as he has been strong for too long, thus he can only perceive the value of strength if he had been weak before.

a rich men would squander his wealth, as he never know how hard to obtain them and what they can do, thus he can only perceive the value of wealth if he had been poor before.

a healthy man would do everything that spoil his body, because he had never felt the pain and suffering of a sick man, thus he can only perceive the value of health if he had been sick before

a man would not apprecited his loved ones, because he never experience the emptiness and loneliness for losing them, thus he can only know how much he love someone, if he had or nearly lost his loved ones

a man would pursue vanity, which is seducing but temporary, throughout his life, ignoring the true meaning of life which is eternal, or even refuse to find it, as he had forgotten he'll be dead one day, and none of the vanity would stay or follow, thus a man can only perceive the value of life, if he had returned from the gate of death.

problem? always

seems i will miss.it again... any measure i can take? i was always preparing, but never get ready.... thus i really dont know what to do, as it always come so sudden and unexpected.... there are so much thing i havent settle and need to settle, if not it will still be a dead end... god help me please

men are from mars, women are from venus

Once upon a time, men lived on mars... they are a group of arrogant people, ambitious people, smart people, they work hard, developing all kinds of hi-tech stuff, they always see achieving success in their work is the main part of a meaningful life.
One day, the mars people invented a telescope, and they discovered venus. They saw the people in venus, called women. The Venus people are so different, they are elegant, artistic, sensitive to every finest and beautiful thing, relationships with other people is wat they consider as meaning of life.
The mars people were so excited, they have never seen such thing in their life, their natural instinct of adventuring and discovering drives them mad. Thus, the mars people quickly invented a spaceship and travel to venus. Upon arrival on Venus, the Mars and Venus people met, and they mixed up better than expected. They are so amazed by the character of each other which is absent in themselves, which made them fit each other like a lock and a key. They were so happy to meet each other thus they decided to live together. So, the mars people brought the venus people into their spaceship, and travel to a new planet called earth.
Time passed days after days, the mars and venus people live together peacefully in earth, they were so used to the presence of each other, until they forgot their own origin, where they came from different planet. Since then, the Mars people expect the venus people to think logically like they do, while the venus people expect the mars people to be as sentimental as they do. They found that they don't understand each other anymore, they do not fit in each other anymore, thus there were no peace anymore... They were complaining about each other all the time.
people from two planet, difference is always there, no matter how long they lived together. Key to maintain the peace or happiness, is never to eliminate the difference, but is to live with the difference. you are who you are, you shall never change and you are not able to change, otherwise, you are losing yourself. Accept the difference of each other, accomodate for each other. In fact, from the beginning, it was the difference that attracts people from two planet together... Learning to accept and enjoy the difference, you'll discover how well the difference can fit two people in, like a lock and a key...

(Gray, 1992)

Keep and throw

Choices have to be made, one person cant own too many things, one person cant be so greedy. There stages in life that you shall not restrict yourself to anything, there is no such thing as exposure to too much things, as everyone is still discovering their path. However, there is a time where people shall move into a stage that choices have to be made, and certain things have to be given up, as life goes on, things are getting harder and no one can handle too much things at the same time, pick those you have the most passion and ability. Seems i extend the discovery stage too long, in fact, i delayed the stages. While people were discovering, i closed myself; when it is time to start making choices, i was just starting to discover. Well, it's time to gave up something, or else i can't reach both ends.
Make choices on things, not people. Appreciate every person that entered your life, never have any thought on choosing who to stay, who to leave, even if they hurt you, because it will never goes your way. No one can act the way you desire always, everyone makes mistakes, no one could stay in your life forever, every friends have a day to part, but the relations always stay, if u never choose to eliminate them. Never choose who to help, help anyone as long as you have the ability to and it's the right thing. People may not give a return, people may not appreciate your deed, people may turn their back on you, but those never hurt, it was your expectation that hurts.

can i kill myself?

Tai ChU hOng!!! What are you doing!!! You think you're so good?!! you think you don't need to work hard? How are you going to live with an attitude like that? When are you going to learn? When are you going to change? When are you going to throw your pride away? I felt like slapping you to death.... please... don't behave like that anymore... you're not a kid anymore, time to take life seriously...