rebellion

he's not a small kid anymore, he can't be easily satisfied with a candy anymore,
he's not going to obey you, without a solid reason, sometimes even when the reason is obviously present
he starts to fight for what he think is right, although he hasn't truely know what's right and wrong,
he refuses to follow others, he wants to be different,
he's discovering himself...
well, everyone has to go through this stage...
May god fill me with wisdom to play my part in guiding him through this period...

Mr. Average

Yes, i am describing myself...
Suddenly found that i am really average on everything,
well, i am really bad in many things, and at the same time can be better than many in some fields,
but had never been the best...
wonder is there any field that can let me feel myself as the best of all...
Losing myself again....
Arrgghhh.. i hate it!!!!
back to study....

还是会寂寞

早已忘了想你的滋味是什么
因为每分每秒都被你占据在心中
你的一举一动牵扯在我生活的隙缝
谁能告诉我离开你的我会有多自由
也曾想过躲进别人温暖的怀中
可是这么一来就一点意义也没有
我的高尚情操一直不断提醒著我
离开你的我不论过多久还是会寂寞

烂泥

我是烂泥扶不上壁。。。
是烂泥就回你的沼泽，学人爬什么墙壁。。。 妈的

out of sight, out of mind

found that i had lost contact with almost all my old friends, from primary schools to some university... Really, i am the "out of sight, out of mind" type, i wouldn't purposely contact those i wouldn't meet frequently just for keeping in touch.. i won't kacau u in msn, or call u in the midnight , or text u frequently... because sometimes i really have nth to say, and doing this made me felt myself vy annoying... haha... And i wouldn't take the initiative to ask people out, because i hardly find ppl with the same interest with me, they wouldn't enjoy it...
anyway, suddenly miss all my old friends very much.... miss the time we always hang out together.... would really appreciate it if we have the chance to be together like the old times...

hopeless

simply hopeless for repeating the same mistakes;

Well, it doesn't make a difference actually, in fact it won't give much impact, i am still living...

just don't repeat it for another time...

self

we are never alone living in this world, every people are related to each other, everything we do is influencing others, either directly or indirectly, with or without your intention ;

therefore it had been a responsible for human beings to serve each other, to help each other;

that's why we are divided into different professions, and we have our own role as a part of the world, so that we can serve others in a field while others will serve us back in any other fields;

This had been a mutual relationship between human beings since our existence, and this mutual relationship had taken a big role in survival and development of human's civilization;

That's the reason we lived, we are living for the world, not ourselves alone;

so, no matter who you are, or what you do,

REMEMBER, we are not doing this for ourselves, but for everyone else;

we may get benefits for serving others, but, REMEMBER, the benefits shall never be the main reason for us to do whatever we are doing, serving others is always the main part, benefits come afterwards, DO NOT make your priorities confused;

people living for themselves alone are pity, since they are lost, selfish , and foolish. They never really knew their purpose of living, they never grow, they are just a burden of the world. They may own everything, but had never realized it will be all gone one day. they may seemed happy and elated, but they never knew the real happiness.

However, while serving others, never ignore yourselves. we are neither superman nor superwoman, we need to live on, we should get what we deserve to get, so that we could continue to serve others..

we are living for ourselves, and to serve others..

get a balance between this two..

i have no time?!!!

have no time to do anything,
have no time for sports, which once had been a daily routine for me;
have no time to discover new songs and music;
have no time to watch new movies;
have no time to have new songs played on my guitar;
have no time to updates the news about what's going on around me;
have no time to keep in touch with my old friends, or even recent friends;
have no time to learn new things;

and is which more ridiculous,
have no time to serve and be closer to god;
have no time to be spent with my family...

am i really that busy?
or i am just lazy?
or maybe i am too greedy, not willing to give up anything...

陈绮贞

她 - 來自台灣。

出道十三年

創作專輯５張

創作單曲５張

創作歌曲超過５５首

出 席綜藝節目 ０次

平均2年才完成一張專輯

以一支吉他和無限熱誠，默默貢獻音樂，感動樂迷…

最實而 不華的方式

卻能展示真正的「華麗」…

她就是陈绮贞


有人说，她是天使，也是恶魔，
她的歌，是最伤人的歌，
她那甜腻的歌声，好像一把软刀子，轻轻的划过你每一寸肌肤，
起初时感觉没什么，但慢慢的，你会发现，
那把软刀子已刺穿你的每一个伤口，
无论是在淌着血的，结了瘀的，就要愈合的。。。
这时，你会感觉到无比的痛楚，甚至放声大哭。。。
但你却会感谢这把刀子，
感谢它每个伤口，都刺得那么深，那么用力，
你的痛，是多么真实，多么实在。。。
听她的歌，你平日藏在内心最深处的伤痛，
最不堪回首的一切，最不想面对的痛楚，
不但不能被抚平，还会被赤裸裸的摊开来，
也就是这样，她给了你面对这些伤害的勇气，给了你继续生活的动力。。
因为人活在世上难免会受伤害，总不能一直逃避。。

也有人说，她的歌太私密了。。。
像一个小女生，对着男朋友窃窃私语，
或许是在撒娇，或许是在倾诉些什么，
听她的歌，好像在偷窥一样，
会不好意思。。。XD

我听她的歌，没有很痛，也没不好意思。。。
慢慢细嚼歌中的一词一句，还是似懂非懂，
但总觉得它就像诗一般的美。。。
随着那别于一般的旋律流动，或许简单，怪怪的，
却如此清新。。
她的歌就是那么简单，那么深奥。。。
听她的歌会有共鸣，或许因为我们都是怪咔。。。
倒不如说是因为她的歌是出于真实的感受。。。

欣赏她的才华，能把她的心情篇制成一首首美丽的歌曲；
欣赏她的诚实，只唱她真实感受到的；
欣赏她的勇气，能不理外面再乱什么，也要坚持自己的理念。

她该是影响我最大的歌手吧。。。
她让我发现听歌是可以很深奥的；
她让我对生命有更深一层的体会；
她让我无时无刻都期待着她下一个未知的发片期；
她让我无论多穷多忙，都要花钱花时间收集完她的所有作品；

看她抱着把吉他，弹着唱着，就这样简简单单的，却让我如此陶醉。。。
还记得，就是她让我有一股冲动，要学会吉他，要弹完她所有歌曲。。。

Random

started to miss you...

never thought i would....

Romance D'amour

So determined to learn this song,

and i'll master it in one week,

u can test me anytime afterwards...XD

A

7--7--7--|7--5--3--|3--2--0--|0--3--7--|12--12--12--|12--10--8---|| e

-0--0--0-|-0--0--0-|-0--0--0-|-0--0--0-|- 0-- 0-- 0-|- 0-- 0--0--|| h

--0--0--0|--0--0--0|--0--0--0|--0--0--0|- -0- -0- -0|- -0- -0--0| g

---------|---------|---------|---------|------------|------------|| d

---------|---------|---------|---------|------------|------------|| a

0--------|0--------|0--------|0--------|0-----------|0 --- ------|| e

4/6B 6/6B

8--7--5--|5--7--8--|7--8--7--|11--8--7--|7--5--3--|3--2--0--|

-5--5--5-|-5--5--5-|-7--7--7-|- 7--7--7-|-0--0--0-|-0--0--0-|

--5--5--5|--5--5--5|--8--8--8|- -8--8--8|--0--0--0|--0--0--0|

---------|---------|---------|- --------|---------|---------|

0--------|0--------|---------|- --------|---------|---------|

---------|---------|7--------|7 --------|0--------|0-----3--|

___________________ __________________

1. B | |2. C |

2--2--2--|2--3--2--| 0--------|--------- || 0--------|--------|

-1--1--1-|-0--0--0-| -0--0--0-|-0--0--0-*|| -0--0--0-|-0---0--|

--2--2--2|--2--2--2| --0--0--0|--0--0--0 || --0--0--0|--0-----|

---------|------1--| 2--------|--------- || 2--------|--------|

0--------|2--------| ---2-----|--2------*|| ---2-----|---2----|

---------|---------| ------3--|0-----3-- || ------3--|0-------|

D 6/6B

4--4--4--|4--2--0--|---------|-------2-|9--9--9--|9--11--9--|

-0--0--0-|-0--0--0-|5--4--4--|4--3--4-0|-7--7--7-|-7-- 7--7-|

--1--1--1|--1--1--1|-2--2--2-|-2--2----|--8--8--8|--8- -8--8|

---------|---------|--4--4--4|--4--4---|---------|----------|

---------|---------|0--------|2--------|------9--|----------|

0--------|0--------|---------|---------|---------|7---------|

9--7--7--|7--9--11--|12--12--12--|12--11--10--|9--9--9--|9--7--5--|

-9--9--9-|-9--9-- 9-|- 9-- 9-- 9-|- 9-- 9-- 9-|-5--5--5-|-5--5--5-|

--9--9--9|--9--9- -9|- -9- -9- -9|- -9- -9- -9|--6--6--6|--6--6--6|

---------|----------|------------|------------|---------|---------|

---------|----------|------------|------------|0--------|0--------|

0--------|0---------|0-----------|0-----------|---------|---------|

___________________ ___________________

|1. E | |2. F |

4--4--4--|4--5--2--|0--------|-------02|| 0--------|---------|

-0--0--0-|-4--4--4-|-0--0--0-|-0--024--|| -0--0--0-|-0--02420|

--1--1--1|--2--2--2|--0--0--0|--0------|| --0--0--0|--0------|

---------|---------|---------|---------|| ---------|---------|

2--------|2--------|---2-----|---2-----|| ---2-----|---2-----|

---------|---------|0-----3--|0--------|| 0-----3--|0--------|

G

2--2--2--|2--3--2--|0--0--0--|0--2--0--|0--------|---------|

-0--0--0-|-0--0--0-|-1--1--1-|-1--1--1-|-0--0--0-|-0--0--0-|

--2--2--2|--2--2--2|--0--0--0|--2--2--2|--0--0--0|--0--0--0|

---------|1--------|---------|---------|---------|---------|

0-----2--|------2--|3-----2--|0--------|---2-----|---2-----|

---------|---------|---------|---------|0-----3--|0-----3--|

---------|---0----12---|| Touch the last three "12||'s easy, so you

---------|--0---12----------------------------------|| only get the harmonies.

---------|-0--12------------------------------------||

---------|2-----------------------------------------|| The melody starts at A and then you play

------2--|------------------------------------------|| BACDEAFG.

0--------|------------------------------------------||

yea... i'm a freak

i'm a freak...
had realised that since i was a child,
as i had never been sociable in school,
as i always think differently from others,
act differently from them,
friends saw me in the same way,
and i had never found it shameful....
but life as a freak was never easy... :p

however after some time,
i started to consider myself as normal...
maybe i really had changed normal,
or maybe it was just my thought,
or maybe it was just a relative as there are freakier people around me...

recently,
found that i am a freak, again...
my thoughts, my stands, my favourites, my actions,
all seems so different from the others..

if the reason for a freak to be different is that,
he/she knows what is wrong and right,
and had realised that what usually people do,
or what people consider normal,
is actually wrong,
thus, resists to follow the others and act differently...
this freak is not just a freak, but a freak with wisdom and guidance,
or he/she should be named wise instead of freak...

if a freak acts as a freak for no reason,
he/she is just a freak,
another pity and lost person like the others,
just he/she had been living in his/her own world,
had not been able to get along with others...

suddenly felt so lost,
lost my guidance,
my priorities are not clear anymore,
not wiling to do anything, while there are so many important things for me to settle...

yea... i'm a freak

six strings

Everyone knows, human cannot fly…
But since the first chord strummed, I had my first pair of wings…
With only six strings, thousands of emotions are carried within it,
Which every pluck and every strum penetrates my heart, like sharp needles,
Cut through my skin all over my body, like a soft dagger,
Leaving a pain, which is silent but yet so deep…
Thanks for walking me through my lonely nights,
whenever I couldn’t find someone to share my thought,
with you, I would never feel lonely…
with you, I had started dreaming,
with you, I learnt to discover the beauty and meanings of music,
with you, I had my fingers spoiled,
with you, I had my free time filled…
well, dream remains as dream, as I have to surrender to such many restrictions…
you are wide like an ocean, it takes my whole life to swim across you,
you are always kept as my private treasure , like a secret locked in my chamber,
not to be shared with others, totally owned by myself…
will there be a day that the locked chamber is opened, and I’ll take you to cross the door , leaving the chamber?
It remains unknown…

holiday syndrome

yes, this is a new discovery in the psychology medical field,
which will be a great leap and milestone in human's civilization,
a syndrome described by extremely low self-esteem, loss of goals, leading to a totally empty and meaningless lifestyle or condition, or even starting to hallucinate,
occurred among university students during holidays especially....
a syndrome discovered by me, named by me, and happens to me...
or maybe it should be named upon me?
----> chu hong's syndrome? or tai's holiday syndrome? =.=''
what the hell am i crapping? totally bullshit....
ok.. i am trying to convince myself that i am not the only one who is experiencing this "syndrome"...
haha.. that made me feel better... or am i?
totally hate it, but it loved me so much and start to bug me whenever i had a long long free time.. come on bro, give me break!!!
well, had been experienced in handling it,
not gonna take stupid measures such as committing suicide, hurting myself, eat till bloating, crying, etc...
writing emo blog post will do... trust me...
i highly recommend this to every emo person,
don't take stupid measures, blogging solved it all...
=.='' i'm crapping again... ok i'm fine....
but i welcome any approaches that concerns me... hahaha

had you ever thank your friends for willing to be your friends?
well it sounds weird to do so...
and it feels more weird if someone did it to you...
well, at least it made me think a lot,
that maybe i really need to show some appreciation to my friends...
ok, to all my friends, thank you for still considering me as ur friend, it is my honour and
i love you all!!!
MUACKKSSSSS!!!!

给两位好朋友

好人不易做。。。
诚实的人也难做。。。
凭着良心做事更难。。。
妳却做到了。。。
或许看起来像在被人耍，被人利用，被人欺负；
或许在人家眼里这样很傻，很吃亏；
但我知道，妳并不傻，而且比许多人聪明得多，有智慧得多。。。
妳只是单纯地想对大家好，想顾着大局，宁愿让自己受点小委屈；
妳只是选择看见世界美好的一面，全心相信妳的朋友，为他们付出了真心。。。
妳让我觉得自己很邪恶，很堕落。。。
不要改变自己，因为没什么需要改变。。
不要听他们说的，我就是喜欢这样单纯的妳。。。
要做荷花，出淤泥而不染，才显示出妳的特别。。。


你有独到的眼光，一眼就能把人事物看得透彻；
你有得天独厚的天赋，任何事物皆难不到你；
你有你的原则，不理睬世俗的眼光，做事都问心无愧；
你有过人的勇气，坚守着你的立场，说出你的不满；
你不爱花言巧语，总是那么坦诚。。。
你铁汉柔情，刚硬的外表下，蕴藏着温柔和感性，但皆不轻易流露在外；
你朋友不多，但都是挚友，都愿意为你付出真心。。。
想告诉你，
世界没你想象的可恶，换个角度看看，它还是美好的；
人从不是完美的，不好的，就睁一只眼闭一只眼吧，放得太大，只会让自己难受，还会演变成偏见哦；好的，默默欣赏的确没错，但学会称赞人也是好的哦。。。
人的力量是有限的，别把一切扛在自己肩上，相信你的朋友吧。。。
天赋是你的本钱，但别忽略了后天的努力，毕竟这才是成功的基石，要知道自信与高傲不过是一线之差。
的确欣赏，很高兴能认识你；一直都把你当挚友，希望你对我也一样

sorry sue, i copied ur blog post... lol

有一种女孩子在陌生人面前会很安静，很冷漠，
在熟人面前却很放肆，很霸道，
并喜欢一咋一呼的说：“滚，滚蛋，坏蛋，笨蛋”。
不要认为她很粗鲁，她只是很单纯的认为，
大家打打闹闹，骂骂笑笑，表示更亲切，更不分你我。

这一种女孩子不谈恋爱，只在姐妹间游荡
即使有不错的朋友，她还是无奈的笑笑
其实她只是在不能确定自己付出的前提下
不会接受，因为不想伤害。

这一种女孩子偶尔看到街上的情侣时，
也会幻想，也会羡慕，
幻想着将来自己的恋爱
该是多么的帅气，多么的温柔，多么的甜蜜

这一种女孩子，
喜欢和自己的姐妹在一起打闹，大呼小叫。
即使没有男朋友，
在她的世界里，也有她的骄傲！

这种女孩子也会偶尔的忧郁，
朋友问她怎么了 她也只会说没事
其实她只是感觉累了，
她只是需要一个拥抱。

这种女孩子不会轻易恋爱，恋爱了一定会好好珍惜。
她会骄傲的拉着他的手大街小逛，
不要认为她放肆，
她只是答应过姐妹们幸福要大家一块分享。

这样的女孩子恋爱的时候
喜欢大事听男孩子的而在小事上调皮，耍赖。
不要认为她太小气，蛮不讲理，
其实在她调皮的习惯里已经为你收敛不少！

这样的女孩子不允许男孩子的背叛，
如果男孩子真的办了对不起她的事，
她一定会狠心的离开你。
不要怪她太绝情，
她其实很爱你，但是卑微的爱情她不要，
她果断的转身只是不想让你看见她滑落的泪水！

这样的女孩子失恋的时候会在别人面前装的很好，
大声的笑，放声的闹。
当姐妹心疼的说：“你没事吧？”
她会放下她所有的骄傲，趴到姐妹怀里哭。
哭完了，苦笑一声：没想到我还会为一个男的哭。

若你遇到了这样的女孩，
如果你们是朋友，请原谅她平日的不理不睬，
其实她只是不会社交，不敢打扰，
你想想你的每一次邀约，她拒绝过你。
如果你喜欢上她，请你不要说出来，
因为她很幼稚，你会吓跑她。
原谅她的冷漠，
她只是怕伤害你！

若她喜欢上你，请你不要在她的世界里消失。
她没有更多的要求，不会打扰你的生活。
她只是想静静的看着你，
当你的观众，仅此而已。

如果你们已经在一起了，
请你好好珍惜她。
这样的女孩子、太傻，
请你别让她受伤。

这一种女孩子就以这样的方式生活着，
她有她的梦想，她的希望。
一个如花儿般的女孩子，
她时而快乐，时而忧伤；
时而郁闷，时而疯狂；
时而邪恶，时而善良；
时而脆弱，时而坚强！
你可以说她傻，也可以骂她笨，也可以说她冷，
但是她们还是生活在自己的世界里，
希望做一个幸福、善良的孩子！

May

Last day of April, indicates the arrival of May...
May had always been unforgettable,
It had been like that from year to year,

Loved May...
Sunny warm season, flowers blooming..
May had always been emotional...
May had seen my happiest moment, as well as the saddest...
May had seen my first times...
May had seen turning points of my life...
May had given a lot to me, while taken more from me
May had always been chosen for these things to happen,
Maybe they loved May as much as i do...

Not expected much in May this time,
since May had occupy a big part of my memories,
just come what may...

恋爱大过天？

看太多了，像这样的例子。。。
有情喝水饱。。。
有了爱情，全世界算什么？
眼里只有对方，其他都看不见了。。。
什么价值观，什么主见，什么志向，算是什么，轻易的放弃了。。。
眼睛都被蒙蔽了。。。
对错都看不清了。。。
重色轻友的就不提了。。
很怀疑这样的感情可以走多远。。。
正确的感情会让双方都得益。。。
正确的感情里双方是互补的。。。
不是盲目的袒护对方， 不是一味的溺爱着对方。。。
错的始终是错的，对的始终是对的。。。
世界不会因你俩的恋爱而改变。。。
你俩还是活在现实的世界里，不管你俩多陶醉在两人的世界里。。。
其他人还是存在的，生活还是要过的。。。
道路歪了，错了，不及时回头，就无法生存，生命就会陷入困境。。。
困境中你俩还能紧守着那所谓海枯石烂的爱情吗？
到头来什么都是一场空。。。
恋人总不舍得让对方受责备，会心疼。。。
所以宁愿选择溺爱对方。。。
溺爱不代表你很爱对方，是种自私的行为，
因为你只因为怕自己心痛，也不让对方改变犯下的错误，让自己好受些。。。
爱不是做给人看的，没必要表面上向众人表示自己多么支持对方。。
对得起良心就好。。
爱对方就不会让你们的感情变成对方的拖累。。。
都几岁了，还恋爱大过天？
爱情是很美丽的，别把它败坏了。。。

给天下热恋中的人，别让爱冲昏了头，别把其他人与事物忽略了，要保持清醒与理智，
这能让你俩的爱长久，也能让你的生命更精彩。。。

#你们看了接受与否，我管不了，这是我想说的，只说一次，以后不会再说，不会再管。。。

obsession

Nice medals... they're not mine, but belongs to my roommates... i took a picture of their medals when they are both sleeping.... dun tell them i took this pic... XD.. haha... stupid.
really quite obsessed with the medals, little jealous maybe...
Had never won one ever for my 20 years' life...
well, i started late maybe...
not much time left to win one...
so desperate and eager to have one of my own...
one is enough, really...
not going to find any alternatives or shortcut just to have one...
it is more important to know the meanings lying behind these medals,
i know it and not going to let my desperation to shake my belief,
i want to win one which i am truly deserved for it,
and i can proudly hold it and showing to others...
well, it's hard but everything is possible,
have some faith in them and myself...

闲/忙

习惯了忙碌，总喜欢让生活充满着大大小小的事物，才叫充实。。
习惯了忙碌，总觉得让自己为某些事物烦着，才仿佛有了人生目标。。。
习惯了忙碌，总是要让自己肩负着些重任，才找到自己的价值。。。
习惯了忙碌， 对期待已久的空闲，反而觉得怪怪的。。。

闲了，生活空洞了，目标没了，价值被贬了。。。
慢慢颓废，废人一个。。。
闲了，脑袋空了，胡思乱想了，沉淀多时的事物浮现了。。。
慢慢烦恼，烦人一个。。。

选择了忙碌，倒不如说是选择了逃避。。。
选择了忙碌，就可以把许多不想处理的问题抛在一旁。。。
选择了忙碌，就可以把许多不想面对的失落暂时忘了。。。
选择了忙碌，就可以把许多不堪回首的痛楚麻痹了。。。
选择了忙碌，就可以把填也填不满的空洞表面的遮盖着。。。
选择了忙碌，就有了一个万能的借口，可以逃避一切。。。

要搞清楚，
要面对的，迟早要面对；
多么不想理的，还是要理；
没有根治的，就消不了痛；
不打开盖的洞，永远无法被填满。。。

要搞清楚，
忙碌或许能让生命充实，
却不能成为真正的人生目标，
也不能给予人生价值，
只是一种假象。。。

别在逃避了！！！

i believe i can fly

i can fly!!!!
FLY....

FLY!!!!!


FLY!!!!
FLY!!!!!

FLY!!!!!!

no.... i cannot fly...

Once had admire those players so so so much,
once had hoped to fly and dunk like they do,
well, the reality is, no matter how hard i try, i can never play like they do

sometimes life is just cruel, as it allows you to have as many dreams as you want, but as life goes on, you found that you have to give some up one by one...
you can't blame anyone for that....
some had never work for their dreams,
some had not work hard enough,
some had worked hard enough but just do not have the luck,
that's just life...

it is always important to be aware of your own position in the reality,
we should appreciate those dreams still remained achievable, instead of mourning for dreams which are lost...

it is time to realise of my position and priorities,
it is time to appreciate of what i had and hold it strongly, not letting it to slip away again
well, i believe i always can fly!!!!!!

the ugly truth

loved the way you had been so naive, open up yourself without any disguise, had the intelligence of being complicated , but had chosen to be naive, had chosen to see the world from its pretty site with a simple mind, but still had realised how much evils are hidden on the other site ... having guidance in whatever you think and do, holding on to it strongly and bravely... a beautiful heart standing among the ugly truths, wisdom that distinct you from the fools...
recently, have found that you are not as blank as a white paper... well, no 1 is... Stories hidden behind are revealed 1 by 1... anticipated and scared...it is driving me crazy... cannot wait to know the real you...

stucked...

stucked... after so long, even haven't enter the first step...no progression at all...
have no idea about what to do next,
have no idea about what should be done,
have no idea about what is really the situation,
have no experience of such thing,
have time of about half a year left,
really too short to make things happen...
if you know what am i talking about,
please consult me, or give me a hint,
a CLEARER 1!!!
I really need a guidance

叁

好像鱼骨卡在喉咙的中央，好像有颗大的石头，好像原子弹要爆炸，我要疯了；再烂再讨厌的人都遇过，骗我背叛我的人也遇过，都不曾如此困扰着我；饶恕真是要用一生去学习，但问题是不曾得罪我的，要我如何饶恕？虽是公认的惹人厌，但真的不曾得罪我，不曾对不起我; 既是如此，又为何困扰我那么久？真的，我活了这么久，第一次也是唯一一次那么小气，对一个人如此厌倦，久久无法饶恕，竟然还拉低自己的人格出言毁谤。。。是我小气？这是我的捆绑，但何时才能解脱，怎样才能解脱？

大家羽毛都长齐了，会飞了。。。不再懵懵懂懂了，有主见了，我那一套明显行不通了，不需要我扶着了，或许是我需要你们吧。。。短短一段时间，大家都学了不少东西，成长了不少。。。我还在原地踏步？是开倒车吧。。。真可惜自己一直不愿放开胸怀，没跟你们一起体验这一切？现在开始还来得及吧。。。希望大家都还存着那份情怀，那种热情。。。我也要跟上你们叻。。。

对太会说话的人，要爱或恨？总是觉得自己被他们骗了，当他们把你捧上天，发现只是却奉承；当他表示有多欣赏你时，其实是要让你有多欣赏他们；当你越来越欣赏他们表现出来的好，却忽略了他们隐藏了多少的坏；当他们用无限的热诚燃烧了你，却发现热诚的其实只有傻傻的自己。。。 往往不想把话包装得太美丽，却必须学会这么做，谁叫世人都爱听好话。。。真不明白。。。做么那些傻嗨酱爱听骗话。。。真的希望，也很真的很珍惜，还有人可以让我坦荡荡的说话，不论好听或难听，只要是真心话，不用漂亮的词语，不用顾他的感受，因为他知道真心可贵。。。真的希望，也很真的很珍惜，还有人可以向我坦荡荡的说话，不论好听或难听，只要是真心话，不用漂亮的词语，不用顾我的感受，因为我知道真心可贵。。。

blesses

Happy to hear that you've finally found your right one,
such a long time never heard a news about you...
However, happy to get this wonderful news...
Sorry that once i had made you to wait for an empty promise,
once i thought i've ruined your life...
hahaha.. seems i had worried too much..
Time keeps to move on and life goes on, whether you like it or not,
so, we should always move forward, not stopping for anyone...
well, all the best to you...

本末倒置

太乱来了。。。
生活被太多东西充满，或许是好事，让生活充实，让自己学习；
但被这些乱七八糟的琐碎事充满，似乎是本末倒置。。。
其实，很多时候是身不由己。。。
在忙碌中，更该保持清醒的头脑，才不会偏离了正轨，才不会忘了轻重，才不会忽略生活中的小细节。


人言可畏，
选择不信，害怕错失良机；选择相信，害怕被玩弄；
信与不信似乎不太重要，其实重点在于自己的意愿;
信又怎样？愿意又怎样？怪自己不够智慧，不懂怎样走下一步。。。

失败了

真的，这回我彻彻底底地失败了。。。。
我太天真了，我太自负了，
我根本不是那块料。。。
能力有限，经验有限；
不够冷静，容易被压力击垮；
没说服力，纪律放太松了。。。
无法在适当的时候说出适当的话语
以为凭着一股傻颈，什么都不需要了。。。
我太天真了。。。
我还在垂死挣扎吗？我自爽来干嘛。。。
还要做笑给人看吗？丢人现眼。。。
不过反正从一开始就给人笑够了。。。
从此不理它，活得自在些，却永远抬不起头。。。
现在放弃，期待未来，重来过，感觉会好一些，但似乎不太负责任，好像只是骗自己。。。
咬着不放，却太辛苦了，反正也太迟了